“You’re a joker”
My boss said that and walked off.
In his defense, the whole situation was my fault and I shouldn’t have been trying to find a way around it.
But here I was, thinking I was at the end of my internship and suddenly realizing a mistake I made almost a year ago could hold me back.
And maybe keep me from a private practice job I had been looking forward to.
Now, it’s not like the job is going to be any better off than internship.
It’s still going to be the same crazy hours, same old being overworked and not feeling “free”.
It just held the promise of security after internship.
Somewhere to lay low while I plan the next move, use my talents to create a source of income and build my online business.
Now everything would be different.
It might go away. And with nothing to fall back on, where does that leave me?
But those words awoke something within me.
Something I haven’t felt in a long time.
A disdain for the system.
I started thinking:
“I hate being told what to do.”
” I don’t really enjoy working for someone.”
Somewhere in between the hectic calls in my last posting, I had suppressed my need to be free, to feel in control and now, it all started seeping out on to my epidermis.
“I haven’t been writing.”
“I haven’t been working on my sites.”
My mind kept rigmaroling. Then a question comes up in my mind- “Do I really want to do this? Can I handle getting shitted on by my bosses for the next ten years?”
Fast-forward a few hours later, and I still can’t get it off my mind, and there’s a new one now.
“Why can’t you just use your talent to make your way?”
“Why are you settling for a medical job? What happened to making money from writing?”
It’s safer to just take the “safe” 9-5 job route, I answered.
But I can’t shake this gnawing feeling.
Then I’m watching a few funny videos on Krakstv with friends. We’re laughing… well, cos Krakstv is funny as hell.
Then I spot a li’l something somewhere on their Youtube channel: “The No.1 content creators in Africa (or something like that)”
Another thought comes in: “Why can’t you be that? Why aren’t you creating content? The only way to make money online is to create something. What in God’s name are you doing consuming instead of creating?”
Now, listening to Ed Sheeran, watching his videos, then I read his story.
“He’s the same age as you. And look where he is right now. Sure, he started earlier but it’s the same thing. Why can’t you earn money from your passion instead of selling out like everybody else?”
Then I realised. I gotta put this in writing.
And here we are.
If you’ve read this far, then you still have a creative soul that is alive and still kicking.
As a matter of fact, we all do.
As kids, we wanted to be artists, dancers, wanted to be astronauts. We had an urge to create, to do, be and feel.
Then something went wrong- We grew up.
Started getting told to face reality. Get a real job. Stop thinking about childish dreams.
And slowly, the fire of creativity began to die out.
But it doesn’t have to.
Many times I look at the faces of older people as they talk about the road not traveled- the dreams they had, and what they wish they could have done.
A year ago, I stumbled upon the diary of a family member, and of course, I pored through the pages.
Read about dreams not followed and how that person really still had that desire to chase the dream, but couldn’t.
And it was frustrating her, making her depressed.
I don’t want to be that family member. And I’m sure you don’t want to as well.
But this is the time of change in Naija, I hear you scream.
That’s even the more reason to set your inner child free and ignite the fire within.
And who knows, you might just end up being successful while doing what you really love.
Yes, the risk is high, but so is the reward. And if you make it, by God, there is nothing more wonderful and self-fulfilling than being who you were meant to be and doing what you were meant to do.
Most times, regardless of how you live, you’ll be miserable to a certain degree.
Would you rather be miserable but at least doing something you love, and chasing your dreams or would you prefer to be miserable while taking shit from people who most likely don’t appreciate you at a job you don’t want to be in?
So, to be or not to be creative- That is the ultimate question.
Author: Tomi Joshua
Tomi is a case.
A bit brash, at first blush. But ultimately, he means well. There are very few things he won’t say or do in the presence of tolerant company (especially when it could make for a good story later).
Tomi is a Doctor, writer, certified inbound marketer (Shout Out to HubSpot), Digital Hustler, and online business addict.
He is most likely to be found dancing to the beat of his own drum, even in accapella.